Monday, March 05, 2007

i keep wantin to stop things from changing..

i see people slippin through my fingers..
and i feel like begging them to come back to me..
i look at the people i used to laugh with..
but they have all become strangers to me now..
and i turn and overturn those memories in my head..
and i wonder why that is all i managed to keep..

i want to stop myself from changing..
for fear that one day i can't keep up with them..
for fear that one day i can't tell me from me..
and i wonder why is it that when i mourn..
it is for that artless unschooled girl instead of for myself..

if i meet God some day..
i'll ask Him why He made life such a cruel game..
why as i get older.. i only feel more alone..
and more acutely aware that more things will be taken away from me..

maybe i'll ask Him why i get insomnia too..

Posted by Victoria at 9:44 AM