perfect strangers

2007-04-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

i'm sitting in the middle absorbing pain from both sides..

2007-04-11T11:48:00.000-07:00

"All in naked splendour of soft skin smooth like alabaster
Perfection of an alluring temptress.
You, with all your infallible angel-like attributes
Fell in lieu' with her slumberous breathing
Your heart pickin its tempo
Our insalubrious romance, our broken-winged dream"

because we all need a closure.

2007-04-03T09:53:00.000-07:00

just 4 hours before i leave for shanghai suzhou and hangzhou..
and i'm not packed yet.. bah..
i'm how bloody unprepared for the trip..

i feel almost too detached for my own liking..
i can't tell if i'm just plain fucked up..
or that i haven't had enough time to digest the gravity of things..

and i know i'm just beginning messin up my life..

once.. i could have sworn it had to be you..

2007-03-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

i don't really know what this means..
but ven tagged me.. and so i'm supposed to write six weird ass thing about myself..

1) i have four or five moles under my lips which forms a smile
2) i can't sleep without a blanket over myself.. even if its insanely warm
3) i can spend hours watchin the person i like without talkin
4) i like to sleep on my hands
5) i'm a closet sucker for boybands
6) i like to dream that i can fly

i'm not tagging anyone..
stay tuned for lantau island and ocean park photos!

Aint enough kick

2007-03-11T20:43:00.000-07:00

2007-03-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

i keep wantin to stop things from changing..

i see people slippin through my fingers..
and i feel like begging them to come back to me..
i look at the people i used to laugh with..
but they have all become strangers to me now..
and i turn and overturn those memories in my head..
and i wonder why that is all i managed to keep..

i want to stop myself from changing..
for fear that one day i can't keep up with them..
for fear that one day i can't tell me from me..
and i wonder why is it that when i mourn..
it is for that artless unschooled girl instead of for myself..

if i meet God some day..
i'll ask Him why He made life such a cruel game..
why as i get older.. i only feel more alone..
and more acutely aware that more things will be taken away from me..

maybe i'll ask Him why i get insomnia too..

2007-02-23T08:08:00.000-08:00

me qi and pris

the day i had a bruise on my feet from someone's heels..
the day pris threw up on me..
as usual my eyes are half closed.. sigh

2007-02-21T21:30:00.000-08:00

newest addition to our clique..

just the girls!!!

2007-02-09T10:27:00.000-08:00

the weather is getting insanely warm these days..

in about five days i'll be home..
its ironic how home only takes on a meaning when one's away..

2007-01-29T21:56:00.000-08:00

carly my room-mate gave me a pink cheongsam top.. said it was from her mum..
i was so touched.. i forgot what to say at all.. i must have repeated "thank you" a hundred times..

been living off the kindness of these hongkongers..
feels like it can't be me receiving all these goodness..

everyone says i'm lucky to be out of school..
they are right of course.. who am i to say no..
thing is i don't ever think they saw the difficulties of exchange..

because now i understand that cup noodles taste different when you are alone..

but don't get me wrong..
i still love it here..

2007-01-26T09:37:00.000-08:00

zhuo min loves her tim pun..
and its rubbin onto me..
its two in the morning.. and i'm thinkin about sesame paste..
O! Woe is me!

the baptist sisters and the city dudes at sha tin.. :( i want to eat roasted pigeon or something..

pris is hell bent on taking this photo because it disses me off..

at skitz.. my poor toes got stamped on countless times.. and everyone was splashin drinks on everyone's feet.. but everyone was happy..

i sneaked a shot of cliff while gluttony took him over.. 2 bucks for sausage and beer.. tell me who wouldnt..

this is my personal favourite.. its taken at the arts compound at choi hong.. zhuoming said we should have opened our mouths.. LOL

its fuckin freezing here..

2007-01-25T05:41:00.000-08:00

exactly like what you see in the hong kong drama serials.. it gets really exciting when they are near the finishing line..

chok mun and i on the tram.. the trams are cute.. chok mun being retarded as usual..

before clubbin at wan chai.. i wish i could keep my eyes open more often

went to the jockey club yesterday and to skitz at wanchai..
apparently.. skitz is where all the angmos from the three unis go to..

met up with the folks from city university today..
the girls are so lucky to have the guys around..
its just the three of us here :<

my floor mates are going to macau this weekend..
and i'm in two minds who to join..
them or the international students..
and i refuse to go to shenzhen..
but zhuomin wants to make her cheongsam..
shrap her..

2007-01-14T08:43:00.000-08:00

it must be twelve degrees outside..
i'm drinkin hot milo now and feeling absolutely contented with life..

this city is breathtaking..
its developed.. yet not quite..
it is disorganized.. yet there's beauty in it..
i can't quite put a finger to it..

so i'll let my pictures do the talking..

all the singaporeans from city and baptist..

2007-01-02T09:14:00.000-08:00

i'm writin about 2006 afterall..
on hindsight.. it was a not too bad year..
i guess the best part was being able to say fuck it.. and mean it..

my new year resolution is to love my family..
and yes it was recycled from last year..
but i'll try harder this year..

2007-01-02T07:33:00.000-08:00

i ravaged the sale at la senza today.. C:

6 days before i fly.. gah.. i miss nelly...

darling snuppy..

but we turned her into a rabbit..

nel and his ben and jerry's ice cream..

2007-01-01T22:12:00.000-08:00

oh no.. i became fat..

2007-01-01T08:44:00.000-08:00

new year eve was great..

had dinner at novena square..
which was also a mini farewell for me..
anyways.. i shared seafood platter for two with shiang..
and felt enormously happy having satisfied my greed for seafood..

and that jerry sent us back in his tuscani.. whee..
its fun to ride in sports car..
though i prefer uncle alex's fairlady.. thats a real beauty..

then we started our crazy mahjong session..
and i lost every single round..
bah.. i suck enormously at mahjong..

i don't really know how..
but when the lot of us meet..
we seem to have endless things to say to each other..
the eight of us nearly chatted us into a coma..
haha.. right up till nine in the morning..
then we trotted to the hawker for toasted bread and half boiled eggs..
anyway.. i was so tired i slept till eight today and am still feelin blah..

i am meetin the girls again for lunch at al ameen on thurs..
i love my girlfriendys!

2006-12-30T10:07:00.000-08:00

i must start to pack..
i must start to pack..
i must start to pack..
i must start to pack..

tomorrow is a happy day..
cause i get to throw my very own pajama party..
and cause cow is finally coming back from his relief thing in the philippines..
yippee..

i'm leavin in less than a week..
so now i'm mentally preparing myself for the trip..
i'm heedin quan's advice to focus on the positive..
so instead of thinkin how much i'll miss my family.. friends and nelvin in particular..
i'm thinkin about how i'm going to spend my first time holidaying with nelvin after the chinese new year break..
and also hoping the girls will come holidaying during their break..

i lub joo nel :P

here is snuppy the crazy schnauzer..

2006-12-28T09:12:00.000-08:00

x'mas eve was great..
particularly because the food was awesome..
like i got to eat everythin i wished for in my previous post..
there was turkey.. ham.. roast beef.. potato salad..
macaroni salad.. logcakes.. curry.. bee hoon..
oh man.. that's all i ask for christmas.. C:
and.. i only learned how to play dai dee on that same night..
cause i think daidee sounds coarse..
but i beat them flat anyway.. all them guys who forced me to play *cackles*
so they get to drink cheap jacob's creek while i laugh my ass off..
i left a little after eleven because my cousins had an ad hoc party at my place..
and i was happy cause snuppy.. the new mini schnauzer came..
she's the whackiest dog really..
her favourite pastime is jumpin on my bed..
chewing on cow cow's tail..
and jumping at my hair..
basically just anything that annoys me so i'd play with her..
so anyway the night closed with over night mahjong..

xmas itself was nutty..
cause i procrastinated buying xmas presents..
so i had to do alot of last-minute shopping before goin to his place..
i got a polo shirt from topman for nel..
and stuff from marks and spencer for his family..
anyway.. when i got to his home..
the doors were closed and there was a strange hush..
and i had a bad premonition i'd get punked or somethin..
then sure enough.. the door flung open and everyone started cheering..
and i was like.. wtf??!!
then someone hurried me in..
someone put a xmas hat on my head..
and someone shoved me a make shift star awards trophy made of bamboo..
and all this while i still couldn't make sense of anything..
and i saw the widest grin on nel's cousin's gf's face..
apparently.. she had it worse than i did.. so yay..

its a fun christmas..

2006-12-20T10:03:00.000-08:00

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i hope tejay throws a christmas party this year..
he throws the best christmas parties..
turkey.. ham.. log cakes.. candy canes.. red wine..
*sniff* everyone should feast during christmas..

and.. the girls are strongly against the countdown at sentosa..
its no wonder with all that banglas galore..
so i'm suggestin we do somethin like last year..
and then round about to my place for overnight mahjong..
assuming we manage to steal someone's car..
i'll also steal some of nel's alcohol collection..
yay..

2006-12-19T07:13:00.000-08:00

i feel like i've accomplished quite a bit today..
sweet daddy drove me to school today..
which was terrific..
because i've grown supremely lazy of late..

anyway.. i finally got my butt down to returning my long overdue library books..
seriously.. i think library loans will have me impoverished soon..
i went for my medical checkup too..
took my flu jab and an x-ray..
which is supremely stupid cause i rem doin them both not long ago too..
and i swore too loudly when i got off the weighin scale.. and amused the nurse
cause i put on like fucking 1.7 kg..

i got home only at five and missed my lunch date with steph..
which was crappy.. cause i was lookin forward to it..

i really love this cam whorish boy.. taken at the fountain in parco bugis..

2006-12-18T10:06:00.000-08:00

i'm bitch fitting.. please excuse me..

last night was horrid..
i went to the gas haus for tejay's gig..
and i think it shortened my life quite a bit..
the music was fuckin bad..
death metal.. helllloooooo?
seriously.. even i can do a better job..
plus the amount of second hand smoke i inhaled..
i can't even wash it off my hair..
seriously.. i can't understand why people stink themselves up this way..
also.. to compound everything else that was horrid..
those stupid fuckers tried to murder one another in the moshpit..
but seriously.. i'll wager its no fucking loss..

oh.. my poor nelly..
i think he was more offended by the music than i was..
i think i shortened his life too..

today was far better..
was rolling around at nel's place for a good part of the afternoon..
then had very satisfyin dinner at thai express..
oooo.. i love thai food..
following that nel.. lester and i had a mini potato chips party..
watchin them chat and laugh was rather reminiscent of the way quan and i never get enough of talkin about the way we used to frighten the daylights out of shiang in the toilets back at sc..
haha.. those were glorious days..

aren't we beginning to look eerily alike?

2006-12-16T09:44:00.000-08:00

the best thing that happened to me last semester was meetin kaychin..
i think he must be one of the most inspirational person i've met..

but the bestest thing that happened in my life is nellipillar..

the things we do for self-amusement..

my workplace..

my colleague..

2006-12-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

i'm finished with work..
yay.. the thought of sleepin in every morning is yummyyy..

nel bought me a pretty scarf and the mango knitted wear that i totally dig..
i got the fluffiest cow cow pillow from cow cow..
my dad bought me a webcam..
i think save for a thick outerwear i'm almost done.. or so i hope..

i think it was almost a few days ago when i saw stuff that disturbed me..
so much so that i feel sad thinkin about it..
it was somethin like this rather old woman..
who looked like she had some problems with her legs..
but she had her family people holdin her at both sides..
which makes her much better off than most old folks i guess..

they were about to board when the train started beepin..
and the people at her sides quickened their pace.. they were almost dragging her along..
it seems they were about to make it up the train..
but the old woman hesitated at the door..
and said to wait for the next train in dialect..

i felt a bit depressed watchin it happen..
it feels like we are movin so fast..
we aren't even pausin to think about those cannot match this pace..
i think it must feel quite horrid to be them..

i never understood why trains don't stop for a more decent length of time..

2006-12-11T08:23:00.000-08:00

my second post for the night..
i'm bored out of my skull.. surely you can tell..
my provisional entry letter ain't here..
neither is my visa..
my subject matchin is half fucked..
i half booked my flights..
and i haven't prepared warm clothin..
there you see i'm fucked for the exchange..

i haven't met the girls yet.. this totally gets to me..
not gone for a swim..
hell.. people tell me i'm fair.. this CANNOT do..
i haven't hit the gym..
i haven't went on a decent paktor with nelvin at all..
cause both of us have been busy with work..
hell i'm leaving in a month's time and am feelin not the slightest bit prepared..
i haven't met fucking lot of people whom i really really want to meet..
cause i really miss them..
fuck.

okay i'm going to book my air tickets like now..

2006-12-11T04:38:00.000-08:00

the bible studies people came by again today.. and they shot me a question this time..
they asked me what would it take for me to believe God exists.. and i said.. until the Christians stop fighting..
i felt like i had shot my mouth off..
but of course.. i had other things to say..
like how Christians expect to convince others when they remain divided internally..
but they conceded i was right and strangely i felt churlish about the whole thing..

there are many things about Christians that quite baffle me..
like how Christians expect to convert the people they love.. you don't change the person you love in the name of love..
that's plainly manipulation..
and if you were to turn the tables on them.. then wouldn't they be livid..
i maintain my stance that blind faith is like poison..
and that will probably be my faith..
but seriously.. i will not go on..

i cooked with my mom today..
its probably the only time my mom and i don't chew each other's head off..
i cook nice broccoli..

2006-12-08T10:09:00.000-08:00

just to personalize my blog again :D

2006-12-08T09:20:00.000-08:00

i think i quite annoy everyone by changing my blog so frequently.. heh..
but i quite like the greenish template.. so well.. anything goes for now..

work was annoyin today
cause some kid decided scribble somethin nasty about another at the toilet door..
it read : XXX FUCKS SUCKS IS AN IDIOT
yes.. bad english..

seriously..